Sunday, April 10, 2016

Trying to Open up my Heart- for myself……

Learning to F.L.Y.  (First Love Myself)
Living by Proverbs 3:5-6
April 10, 2016

The following is my Angela Shelton workbook week 7, April 2, 2015

What are some ways that you can ignore or suppress pain? 
·         Acting as if I am fine and if I bury it deep enough it will not affect me
·         Promiscuity
·         Drugs, alcohol, stimulants that will dull or numb you heart
·         Building walls around your heart so no one can get in.
·         Complete Denial

You can live with the sword pierced through you. You can ignore the fact that you are wounded and deal with the symptoms of the cause. You have a choice. 

What symptoms can disguise the original trauma?
·         Being tired all of the time
·         Reading and TV – (hiding)
·         Eating – using food to address my emotions
·         Not being honest with myself and others
·         Taking care of everyone else – and ignoring me. (Abandoning myself). 
·         Thanking that most people are better than me, I will never measure up or be good enough

I have ignored the pain in  my life by:
·         Stuffing emotions
·         Hoping it will just go away w/out dealing or facing it
·         Taking care of everyone else – no one will notice my needs that way
·         Ignoring my own needs
·         Eating and emotional eating
·         Quitting – not exercising – not taking care of myself
·         Watching TV – reading – listening to music
·         Focusing on everything but my life (the pain in my life)
·         Not always making the right decisions
·         Not teaching my kids how to deal with emotional things
·         Continuing the generational curse of stuffing emotions, enabling bad behavior, covering up lies, keeping it all in the family…….  Etc.….. 

I cope by:
·         Helping other’s – serving obsessively
·         Crafts
·         Reading and music
·         Eating
·         Feeling sorry for myself
·         Taking it out on my kids and Carl

I am silent about:
·         My self-hatred
·         Things I remember
·         My body image
·         Not doing what I need to do
·         How others have hurt me -


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