Learning to F.L.Y. (First Love Myself)
Living by Proverbs 3:5-6
July 8, 2016
The following is my Angela Shelton workbook week 18, June 25, 2015
Discussion:
The thought of touching your sword can scare you and leave you frozen in fear
and not knowing where to begin.
What if the unknown was
super fun and joyous? If
I could know that the unknown was super fun and Joyous a) it would not be
unknown and b) I would always take a chance. The reality is I don’t know if it
will be joyous or not. But I can have Hope that even if choosing the unknown
is, will be or can be hard, the end results will be super fun and joyous.
Examples that prove this to me are; This Workbook, The 30-Day Wear Your Joy
Project I participated in – the painting class I took, Discovery, Retreats,
even buying new make-up products as of late have been super fun and joyous to
me. (now I need to push through this fear and go shopping with Meredith). How
could that not be super fun and joyous.
What would your life look
like if you had no fear? What would you be doing?
Today, if I had no fear
I would spend time doing exactly what I love doing and I would figure out how
to live my dream. I would spend less time veg’ing and thinking about all of the
things I could be / should be doing and DO THEM! I would buy a piano and learn how to play again
– I would go shopping with Meredith and have her help me find my style. I would
read and learn how to start my own business and embark on that adventure. I
would go for a swim every day. I would figure out how to work less and play
more or turn my play into work. I would dance more, enjoy myself, be happy with
myself. I would, if I could, if I had no fear ------ - Man what a thought!
Healing Worksheet
If I had no fear I would:
·
Work
less – paint more
·
Start
a business – A Room With A Voice
·
Lose
Weight – exercise
·
Love
myself, be happy with myself, no matter what
·
Confront
betrayal
·
Be
more active in church (vulnerable)
If money was no object I
would:
·
Start
a business
·
Buy a
piano
·
Quit
my job so I could work at my business, create, speak, paint, teach, heal
·
Visit
more with my friends
·
Travel
to visit my friends and family
·
Buy a
place to hold retreats
·
Plan and
hold other retreats that are in my heart
·
Help
more women get to our retreat
·
Help more
people get to Discovery
·
Open
up another girls home and do it right with parents and children in the home
together to teach parents how to parent, without the separation trauma.
·
There
are so many things I would love to do, if money was no object.
Letting go of pain makes me
nervous because:
·
Because
I will need something to fill up the time and space that the pain took.
·
I am
afraid of what that would be.
·
I
have lived a lot of my adult life, “going through the motions,” and although a
lot of that was really good, had I paid better attention, focused on my heart
and hearing what it had to say I believe I would have done a few things
different.
·
I
didn’t fully realize my pain or how much of it was affecting me and my
decisions and relationships.
·
The
fear of not succeeding or being good enough has kept me from a lot of dreams,
which is completely silly because of some amazing things that I have
accomplished even while I was ignoring or stuffing my pain and fear.
·
I
lost 100lbs, working hard, eating healthy and exercising. I kept it off for 15
years because I put myself in the fitness industry. I was a very popular
aerobics instructor/personal trainer in the Dallas area. I went to workshops,
hosted and led workshops and training. I owned my own studio, all while running
from my pain and fear of facing it and also raising my kids. I got hurt and
slowly starting gaining the weight back when I could no longer exercise. Then I
started figuring out the emotional mess I was in. I don’t believe I would have
gained all this weight back had I healed my heart earlier.
Until next time……
Hugs and Blessings!
Kim Mayer
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